Meeting with God

As my two young friends lay in God's embrace, i sat down to have the meeting with the Man himself... He opened the Book of Days....squinted His eyes... too many fine prints in my life i guess...*sigh*... the words that came out... "I'll give you another chance."

I woke up and saw that I was about to hit the yellow top taxi, instincts took over..I swerved to avoid the taxi...had no idea if there was another car around...heard a bang...then another...everything happened so quickly...i just wanted to put the car to a stop without killing myself and my two youngs friends...in a flash..it was all over.. I managed to halt the car by the shoulder of the AYE... i got out of my car instantly to see if the other car was ok... I was glad that no other vehicles were involved but i was shocked to see that the taxi had come a halt with its back facing the direction of the travel...how the hell did that happen ? my two passengers were shellshocked i believed....they got off the car with me....

I saw the cab driver get out of the car..he crossed the road precariously.. the driver with the tired eyes childed me for driving like this and causing the accident... i was sober-shocked by then.... i apologised repeatedly.... i saw his sorry and weary eyes looking at me, i recall hearing him say "wah..you will get me into a lot of trouble this time".. he crossed back to his car a couple of times to get some pen and paper..lee shouted out to him to be careful when crossing..........
...i am really sorry mr ong bk....i really am..

as we wrestled about calling the police and all...they both came within 5 minutes of each other...the ambulance then followed by the bmw... someone driving by could have called for the ambulance which then triggered a call for the police..the cab driver claimed that he had not called for them... the medics spoke to all of us to check that none of us sustained any injuries.. fortunately none had..they waited for the TP to arrive before making their departure... vonda and lee tries to reassure me that all will be fine....lee surprised me by giving me a reassuring clasp and rub on my shoulder...exactly what i needed to calm me down....thank you lee

the man in blue beacons me to go over...i walked towards the police seargent.. as i passed the taxi passenger...i took a puff from his fag.. he gave it to me willingly and knowingly.....i thank God that he was not injured..as I handed him back his fag.. i apologised to him again.."sorry bro...to make you go through this...really sorry man.." he reassures me that he is fine....

The police seargent spoke a provoking manner....

"har..you were drinking right when you drove ?"..."do you know you are disturbing my rest time?".."I saw you taking a smoke from that guy..from now on..you are not suppose to drink, eat or smoke anything.. you understand?..I will add another charge to you if you go against this order"....

i could only recall these questions being thrown at me .... amidst the confusion, dread and fear i had to grapple with..he read some criminal legislation rights to me...

i took the breatheanalyzer test.. the red rectangular screen flashed...FAIL... i had to be arrested and brought back to the hq for a more complete test at ubi.. the seargent's assistance asked me how my car will be dealt with.."so we tow your car back to ubi ?".."anyone coming to drive your car back?".. I thank Vonda for taking the initiative to call her brothers to come and help drive the car back... we had to wait for another 20 minutes or so..... i bade farewell to them and took the bmw back to the hq...Thank you vonda.

inside the police car, the seargent treated me surprisingly friendly...the chatter was amiable..he said that because i was co-operative and not "guai lan", he had decided not to handcuffed me.... i found out that he had a son and that he was younger than myself...a speedster he admitted he was and hence does not drink...maybe that was why he was driving the bm ferociously..i joked that he should drive a little bit slower and give me some "time"...

we arrived at the ubi hq in no time.. i walked along silently..fearing for the worst... the seargent passed a remark that he hoped that i would be fine..."i hope so lah" I replied....i was asked to take a seat while they proceeded to complete their reports... shortly, i was called upon be another policeman.. i took my stand before this complex squarish looking machine...instructions were briefed to me slowly...the test limit was 36 ug/100ml.. and after our details were keyed into the system, i blew into the device... paranoia crept in..it was a anxious 10 secs wait for the results....25.. the policeman informed me that i had passed, it is was plain from his voice that he was surprised...the seargent who brought me in enquired about my results and was silently pleased that i had passed i felt...

it was not the end.... they took my phone and keys and escorted me to this "waiting room" where there were a couple already inside.. this modern jail room was air conditiond with 3 seating rows; 2 rows facing each other and the other just hidden behind the wall encasing the 2 rows... before i went in, i asked if i would be allowed to make a call for bail.. he told me that i would be given time later and i was escorted into the "waiting room"..

i am not sure how long i had to wait..as i felt sleepy, i laid my tired body across the chairs and fall asleep... i was awaken by a shout inside the room, the couple in the same room was being asked about something.. before i could gather my thoughts, another plainsclothes policeman waved for me to come out through the clear windows of the room... this must be my turn for statements.. the young looking policeman brought me to another interview room..there were 4 pcs there and i noted ironically that this man's t-shirt printed "SINGHA Beer"... this was the interviewing officer(IO) who took and type my statements rapidly into the pc... he prompted me along for my indication of how the accident took place... at one instance i told him that i dozed off and that was likely the cause of the accident.. he looked wide-eyed at me..pause..said "you tell me how you want me to write this?" and that "dozing off" statement was likely to get me the maximum punishment which was a fine between 1-3k and a loss of license... i told him that i had only wanted to be honest..." i need your expertise here man"... the masterpiece statement was completed after a while....i signed on the 3 sheets...as i walked out of the room, i saw my dad and wifey out there... i heard a chuckle(?) from my dad and there was a strange calmness about my wifey...I was told to come back on the 18th for the verdict..i can only pray now..the time was 5.10am

after the bail was completed, i walked silently to my dad's vehicle..i apologise to my wifey for the damage on her car.. it was unliked her, she was calm throughout the journey..no hysterical ramblings and shouting unlike the 1st major accident i had 5 years back..not sure what to make out of this..

This morning i woke up slightly more level headed.. as i paced through the events that occured..i became emotional...i messaged lee and vonda to aplogise and enquire if there were bodily injures.. both responded well..a strange kinda of calmness.... no one could understand how i felt...no one...i almost lost my life 5 years back and I almost lost it yesterday..am i afraid of dying? probably not... but to almost single-handedly destroy the lives of two young individuals is something which i cannot come to terms with...a punishment which is worse than death had it occured..I can only thank the Holy Spirit for guiding the vehicle to prevent this catastrophe, how else do you explain the fact that no other vehicles were hit when i swerved to avoid the taxi? luck?

To witness the same scene repeated was too much to bear..everyone whom i text to wrote the "same" messages..deriding the incident to a mere factual crash and as long as no one was injured, it was fine...who could understand the emotional fracture that is within me now? i cried as my emotions got the better of me..

as for lee and vonda, i want to say that you are very very very fortunate to be alive today..and i apologise again for putting your young lives at risk.. somthing which should have never happened in the 1st place if you have taken the cab home..sincerely sorry.

Thank you Lord ....
Thank you Holy Spirit....